50 Fabulous Things About Me

50 Fabulous Things About Me : LOLO SLAYS

This is going to seem a little vain, and trust me I had a hard time writing 50 fabulous things about myself. Like a lot of women I struggle with insecurity. Sometimes I believe what the world says about me; that I'm lazy, crazy cause I struggle with depression, slutty cause I've made mistakes in love. On the days I remember what God says about me, I can carry my head held high. But, I am human and sometimes the judgment of the world, the guilt of my past gets to me.  On one particularly low day, I confided in a friend about my sadness and depression.


"I am nothing. No job, no man, no family.... I am nothing," I proclaimed. I could feel the hot tears streaming down my face I as heard myself say those words out loud. " I have ruined everything."

"None of those things have anything to do with who you are Lauren," my friend said. "Your value doesn't come from what you are right now, what you are wearing, what you own or don't own, or who is taking care of you. It what you chose to do with what you've got."

He's right. My friend has read my blog about my family's abandonment, my suicide attempts, heartbreak, mental illness, and homelessness.

"I want you to write me a blog that list 50 things that give you value as a human being. It can be anything with your imagination."

One a super low, depressing night this was a hard challenge, but here it what I came up with.

1. I am a good writer.
2. I am great public speaker
3. I am a good, trusting friend
4. I have a compassionate heart.
5. I have the strength to forgive
6. I have the ability to affirm others with my words
7. I am a comforter
8. I am patient
9. I am kind
10. I am good at applying makeup
11. I am a good sales person
12. I know tons about social media
13. I can talk to anyone
14. I make friends easy
15. I am fast thinker and quick on my feet
16. I am a good planner (ok I'm reaching here)
17. I am a born leader
18. I am ambitious and driven
19. I am  hard work
20. I work well under pressure
21. I am good at memorizing things (I sometimes have photographic memory)
22. I am wifey material (YASS BOO)
23. I am highly intelligent ( I graduated cum laude from VCU
24. I can dance.. well at least I think I can
25. I am funny (note picture of modeling a blonde wig. I have a pink one too.
26. I am a good big sister
27. I once won "Most Likely to Replace Oprah" in a college superlative
28. I can multitask
29. I was once a television news reporter, production assistant, director, web producer --I've paid my dues.
30. I am a fighter. (No matter what you say about me... I always get back up.
31. I am sensitive
32. I am an encourager
33. I think of others before myself
34. I like to help others and volunteer
35. I am good with kids
36. I can speak some Spanish
37. I used to play the clarinet 
38. I once worked three jobs and kept a B+ average in college
39. I have the ability to take care of myself. I was independent for a long time before my depression got bad
40. I can see the good in others
41. I have an eclectic sense of fashion
42. I have a quirky, unique personality
43. I am a free spirit
44. I take up for others
45. I am accepting of diversity
46. I have a diverse set of friends
47. I have a nice radio/tv voice (I'm reaching again.... lol)
48. I know that God is able and in control
49. I am a conqueror
50. I am beautifully and wonderfully made.....

While difficult this challenge made me reach down deep within myself... and remember I am beautiful, I am human, I am a woman of grace. Thanks for the challenge friend. Whenever I get down or  when the world's judgment becomes too much I'll take a look at this list... and remember I can do all things through who Christ who strengthens me. #IAMTHATIAM