I have a thought:
"Is it wrong to call yourself fat?"
Look I know sometimes the word can carry negative connotations. But I'm not
calling anyone else fat. I'm calling me FAT. For those of you who know me personally, you know I have self-deprecating
humor. I just do. I always have.
So when I became
a plus size woman my weight became something to laugh at. Look life is hard! Being
overweight is hard! I don't care how we dress it up curvy, voluptuous, thick,
big girl. When it comes down to it last year I got freaking FAT.
OK so I laugh
at it. I joke at the fact that I drool when I think of Krispy Kreme donuts like
Homer Simpson. I fantasize about a good Five Guys Burger or a greasy
cheeseburger from Sonic's. Don’t get me started me on cupcakes, cookies, and
pizza; I may get the food shakes just thinking about how good those can be.
Look by choosing to
call myself fat and laugh, I believe I am taking the sting out of it. It’s like
beating everyone to the punch. Heck yea I’m a fat girl, and I’m fabulous! Yes I
wear Spanx, bras that feel like they are suffocating me sometimes to hold up my
huge knockers, and there is no thigh gap here. As a lover of reality television
I know it could be worse. I could be on ‘My 600 Pound Life.’ If you haven’t
seen this show, wow! It not only shows the struggles of being morbidly obese
people it smacks you in the face with the reality that being fat, large, or
obese is not something society is accepting of. Most of these people on the show
recall being taunted, pointed at, and humiliated all because of their size. It’s
horrible actually. It’s such a sad show. Have a box of Kleenex nearby if you decide
to watch an episode or two. I also love another show on the same network called
‘My Big Fat Fabulous Life.” This show follows the life of Whitney Thore, an
obese dancer, as she navigates being a big woman in a small world. It’s an
amazing show, and if you are interested in how Whitney got her claim to fame,
it all started with this fat girl getting on Youtube and shaking her ass. Watch
the video below home girl is getting it.
I conclude by saying, I feel there is nothing wrong with
calling myself fat. When I had to go to the doctor because my feet were swollen
and aching, the doctor said, “Well being overweight brings its own set of new
I’m like, “Doc, give it to me straight! Are my feet swollen
because I’m fat?”
going to look at my fat ass in the mirror and dance like Whitney Thore. My
current jams are ‘Confident’ by Demi Lovato , ‘Big Booty’ by Jlo and ‘Love
Myself’ by Hailee Steinfled. I’m going
to put the videos down below. Also see the blog on your theme song for more on
this topic of songs giving me life.
Listen to these
songs. They are about loving yourself and self-acceptance, a message we call
could get down with.
She laughed, “In a nutshell, yes Lauren. These water pills
should help. Stay off your feet, elevate them, and work out slowly. Losing
weight is not a race Lauren. If all you can do is walk 30 to 40 minutes a day
right now that’s fine,” she said.
“Well doc, I’ve lost ten pounds so far, and I’m following
the Weight Watcher lifestyle,” I replied.
“That’s fabulous Lauren. I know you have never been this
weight before. Understand as a 30 year old woman it will take time to lose
these pounds, but it’s not impossible.”
That’s all I needed to hear. It’s not impossible. Look the reality is it may take me a year to
lose the 100 pounds I know I need to lose and that’s ok. But, in the meantime I
am going to love my lady lumps; I am going to date and dance, and love.